him&her

80.

2010-08-12T12:07:00.000-07:00

Hello there.

School is done.

This is good.

2010-08-03T12:43:00.000-07:00

This is my best friend and me.

WTF right?

Leave my door open, just a crack.

2010-07-04T05:32:00.000-07:00

PLEASE TAKE ME AWAY FROM HERE

The world needs to be turned inside out.

Maybe then I wont always lose.

2010-07-03T12:13:00.000-07:00

We all find some reason to live,

Try to make sense of it,

And then we think about the meaning of life

We all think it's to do something important,

Because of the grand scale that life is.

But all we do is end up doing is finding that reason to live.

We all have different reasons, and so then we all have different meanings to life.

I could fall in love, and swear not to die for my love.

You could go to war and swear not to die for your family.

I think too much.

HEY SARAH.

I'm glad I met you.

Like no joke. I think I'd be freaking lonely

or have no one to be a total shit around.

I feel grateful today.

Epic. what. the. fuck.

Numbers

2010-05-03T08:09:00.000-07:00

Numbers, Numbers, Numbers.

How pointless.

I actually can't wait for next year.

Why?

Well, people will leave and people will come.

One will be left alone but you can't say she didn't bring it upon herself.

Do not tango with the devil redz,

You may end up with unwanted attention but she will like it.

ATTENTION WHORES.

Anywhos, who cares about anything right now?

The pressure of exams is crazy.

Explosion!

Kaboom, boom, boom.

Die.

Fin.

2010-05-01T06:30:00.000-07:00

And maybe we got this all the way down wrong.

I mean 1 could be with 4.

and 2 could be with 3.

But then we're cutting out 5,6,7,8.

I mean 5 is great and all but all the stuff with 6.

and 3 just knows that 6 is just there, but what?

so 3 and 5, just. huh.

well, 3 is happy for 6 and 7, really.

Right now. the world could see 1 with 4 and 2 with 3.

But it never works out that way. There's something there. in both the withs.

but you know. it's like wtfamanagah.

And maybe deep down inside of 1 and 3, maybe there's a number 8 for them.

Maybe 1 and 3 have just given up.

But then 2 and 4 have their own stories.

So it's like a web of wtfamanagah. Sort your shit out.

Let's play a game.

2010-04-30T07:20:00.000-07:00

Redz has the sexiest stalker.

Even on crutches, she sprints like a cheetah on ecstasy just to get a glimpse of her one, her only,

Nur Redzuan Nur Binti Jazlan

From what I know, Nur and Binti are for girls...

TEE HEE

Lets bring this back to life.

2010-04-30T06:46:00.000-07:00

HEY SARAH what's up?

Well.

So I have a stalker.

And I'm cool with it.

Just a little bit shitted to the core scared when someone creeps on me from the back.

Like who knows what kind of shit that person is into.

Like throughout the whole of my ICT exam, Ms. Kam, Tee hee. Yeah what up. kept popping behind me. and I was like NINJA REFLEX. and boom snap. I just sat there. Like a Boss.

That reminds me of katy boss.

But yeah that's what been up Sarah.

What about you?

There's only crap school drama going on now. None of that crazy ass shit anymore.

FAMANAGAH!

2010-04-04T09:27:00.000-07:00

It is time for us to wake up.

Let's end this long hibernation.

Our eyes are overdue for an opening.

Stretch.

Yawn.

Wake up.

This blog hasn't been touched in forever.

So i have decided to brush off the cobwebs.

Hey Redz.

Whats up?

2009-12-14T20:42:00.000-08:00

HEY.

SARAH.

WHAT'S HAPPENED.

FUCKING MISS YOU WOMAN.

WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO ALL THE AWKWARD SEX.

I blogged. on my other one. lovely lovely riddle.

GUESS WHAT GUYS.

Things are way too funny.

2009-12-13T08:47:00.000-08:00

HELLO!??!?!

where have you gone redzuan?

2009-11-15T20:36:00.001-08:00

I'm using my itouch to write this.

<3

2009-06-13T03:36:00.000-07:00

where is the love?

2009-04-18T08:22:00.000-07:00

Well,

I'm glad I have you as my

Best Friend.

not plural.

haha :)

2009-04-18T06:51:00.000-07:00

and i'm glad that i have you to call one of my best friends.

2009-04-05T01:24:00.000-07:00

Okay okay

we'll go with something like

Oh baby you're a classic.

or like

Where is your boy tonight?

and hey yeahh ummm

we must practice yo.

it's fuck cold.

and hey yeahh HOPEFULLY WE"LL KICK ASS.

It's so nice to know the worlds deprived of FOB>

and yeahh

what elsee?

Sugar we're going down swinging.

2009-04-04T23:26:00.000-07:00

REDZ LETS COMMUNICATE HERE!!!!
seriously,
i don't think 7 mins in heaven is good cos no one knows it....

james suggested what sarah said.. but we wil have to make it faster.

the fourth drink instinct?
doctor?

sugar were going down?
grand theft autumn?

can we just do one of those?
i think grand theft is better.
too many people have done sugar.

we have TOO little time.
if we perfect our cover it's ok.

seriously, we need to decide.
cos 7 mins... its yeah... no one knows it so screw that.

ok, our origional is good.
its just we need to keep it simple n sweet.
no like random shizzle :)

when are you back?
need major practicing.

2009-04-02T09:55:00.000-07:00

i miss you redz.

come back from france already.

honestly, i'm gonna give up on him.
but remember the previous one?
yeah, were all better now.
but i still can't get what she said out of my head.
"when you get over him, he'll like you again"

that rhymed.

slow dancing in a burning room.

i swear i just pick them wrong.
and the ones that are right...
i just...
i don't know.

i just feel so stupid letting that one go.

right now, i'm lost.
tomorrow, i should be fine.

sarah out.

2009-03-24T09:39:00.000-07:00

The Sunken Sixty Second Ship.

and No I'm not afraid of drowning,

I want to tell you I like you.

so bad.

and get this over with,

I want to know what you're thinking.

how you're feeling.

I want you to be mine.

but when you're making up minds.

Pick me.Pick me.Pick me.Pick me.Pick me.Pick me.Pick me.Pick me.Pick me.Pick me.Pick me.Pick me.Pick me.Pick me.Pick me.Pick me.Pick me.Pick me.

It's not that strong of a feeling. but I keep thinking, is she just teasing me?

is that why I can't take it?

It's not just me.

It's her, him, her, him, her, him, her, him, her, him, her, him, her, him, her, him, her, him, her, him, her, him, her, him, her, him, her, him, her, him, her, him, her, him,

Make up your mind, I can't hold on forever.

or I'll make it for you

and here's to her, a salute to say

Are you in with my life or out with it?

And my mother said,

Don't do all this 16 year old relationship drama.

It's not worth it. You'll just get tangled up.

Yeah. She was right.

I'm a frickin genius.

you can't beat me.

This message was brought to you by,

Harvey Norman.

is that a guy or a shop?

2009-03-14T03:40:00.000-07:00

soulful 61.

where would we be now baby?
if we found each other first.
what would you do now darling?
if i said these simple words;

i'll wait, i'll wait

this post was by: sarah the lonely girl

2009-03-13T04:38:00.000-07:00

hey hey, guess what

I don't wanna do this anymore.

There's too much loss,

not much gain.

And well,

I just wanna leave this place.

and never come back.

It's so suffocating.

2009-03-08T01:21:00.000-08:00

can anybody hear me?

i'm loosing my way.

sarah

2009-02-14T02:24:00.001-08:00

it's valentines day and i've never felt more alone....

sarah

2009-02-11T04:13:00.000-08:00

I think this little baby needs a bit of attention.

I"M SORRY.

We should Update this guy more.

hahah

2009-01-19T01:23:00.001-08:00

ULTRAMAN & DOREMON!

ultraman- the gay excuse for an asian powerranger
doremon- who the fuck knows.

so thats it.

2009-01-13T06:33:00.001-08:00

my brother is such a doosh.

2009-01-12T00:03:00.000-08:00

here comes the summer sun,

she burns my skin.

i miss the summer too.
and redz, i think you know why...

2009-01-11T06:13:00.000-08:00

it was the first, it was the first.

I Miss the Summer.

There were so many things.

I would have done,

I could have done,

So many things...

I would have said,

I could have said,

I miss the summer,

for all it's worth.

2009-01-09T01:53:00.001-08:00

thank you redz for asking.

i bet no one reads this but us.

HAHA

2009-01-06T01:50:00.000-08:00

Post Number 50.

Guess what?

It's Two double 0 Nine

New Year wishes.

Love

Happiness.

etc.etc.

It's not a fortune cookie,

So I'm gonna make it happy.

Hopefully.

hahaha.

New Year Resolution.

DON'T FUCK UP.

yeah.

Can you hear my heart beat?

It's saying you should Kiss me.

Talk all you want, but when the time comes

when you have to pull the trigger,

Aim for my heart, at point blank,

And I dare you shoot me and say, I don't love you.

It's not that I don't like you.

I just don't like you.

DON'T FUCK UP!

We live only once.

Now why would you wanna mess that up?

Red Swan.

Hahah army codename.

Red Swan.

You GAY.

LET'S HEAR IT FOR AMERICA'S SUITEHEARTS.

2009-01-02T23:54:00.000-08:00

for
This is for Redzuan.
I searched up lyrics for Sugarcult-Memory and this was there.
HAD TO SAVE IT.
classic.

2008-12-26T21:16:00.000-08:00

redzuan.
i miss you.
-_-

finish your math so you can come over.
:)

i'll kill you in guitar hero.
lol

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Hello?
is anybody out there?

2008-12-22T22:34:00.000-08:00

im doing things without thinking.
its as if i'm lost.

someone please
help me

sarah

2008-12-21T02:21:00.000-08:00

I don't wanna be the girl who has to fill the silence...
The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth
Please don't tell me that we had that conversation
When I won't remember, save your breath, 'cause what's the use?

Aahh, the night is calling
And it whispers to me softly, "come and play"
Aahh, I am falling
And if I let myself go, I'm the only one to blame

I'm safe
Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain
Inside
You're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?

can you hear me?
i'm calling your name...
someone save me.
please.

sarah

We could stay awake talking about nothing

2008-12-18T08:35:00.000-08:00

Can you remember?

The sound of

Two.

It may be an obsession,

Maybe just loss of affection,

Could be loneliness,

But all I know is

I can't stand anymore.

You know when you lose

something so close?

You'd feel like part of you is missing.

Could it be a cover?

Or will she fill it up?

Right now,

It's getting harder

To stay awake.

I don't want to.

Wake up anymore.

eheh, bad habits are hard to get rid of right?

I don't need it right now.

That part of me.

It just feels empty that's all.

Patch it up right?

Scars heal but never leave.

Feel the Silence

Remember me?

Redzuan.

2008-12-09T01:35:00.000-08:00

hello there, the angel from my nightmare.

is anybody gonna save me??

sarah.

2008-11-18T05:19:00.000-08:00

We're Both Fifteen Now, Hahaha.

Happy Birthday, Sarah.

We only want to sing you to sleep.

In your bedroom speakers woah oh oh oh

We need umbrellas on the inside

Give us a sign

They say Quitters never win

We walk the plan on a sinking ship

There's a world outside of my front door

That gets off on being down

I'll be stuck here fixated on one star,

When the world is crashing down.

You've got me down on my knees and I proclaim
All hail the heartbreaker

2008-11-08T02:55:00.001-08:00

So here is my confession,
About my small obsession.
That lead to my aggression,
Which caused me great depression.

You were my possession,
But a lack of expression.
Caused there to be an end in session,
Which caused my heart great compression.

2008-11-01T21:39:00.000-07:00

I've written songs on a whim,

And Verses of lines,

about the time that I thought,

I loved you.

Woah oh oh

Could You keep your Lips closed?

It's not like you have to shout it out.

Then comes Hotel Suites,

Along With Your treats.

Woah Oh oh.

I loved Myself For Loving You,

And I hated Myself For Hating you,

It's Not Like I could Stop thinking of You.

You messed me up, But I messed You up too.

2008-11-01T02:38:00.000-07:00

HALLOWEEN PEOPLE!!!
was the shizzle dizzle mc.fizzle

2008-10-28T04:14:00.000-07:00

FUCK
:)

THE SELF

[01] Real name: Sarah Jade King
[02] Nickname: Rah, Sawa, Jade
[03] Married: Sure...
[04] Zodiac Sign: Scorpio bitch.
[05] Gender: Female
[06] Age: 14
[07] High school: Gay International school
[08] College: Too young retard.
[09] Height: ... i do not know... 160cm something?
[10] Weight: 42 kg.
[11] Do you like yourself: Meh.
[12] Piercings: Ears, tongue, belly
[13] Right or left: Right
[14] Are you a freak: Maybe ;)
[15] Hair: Brown with random light bits.
[16] Skin: Tanned :]
[17] Allergic: I'm allergic to jon chees 12 o'clock ;) haha and i have hay fever
[18] What are you doing now: BEING COOL
[20] What will you do 10 years later: PARTYING, married? or sudying.
[21] Live with: Mummy, Daddy, Little brother, Four dogs, Four turtles (whoot) and loads of fish.
[22] Siblings(including you): Four of us. Two older half brothers, one younger
[23] Eldest: Stephen
[24] Youngest: James.
[25] Love/hate your family: Hmmm, mainly love... the other time hate.
[26] You found your other half: Still searching... i thought i did though.
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: Your mum ;)
[29] Time(s) you were in relationship: Not as many as people expect... I've only had 8 boyfriends... not all serious though...
[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): Woohoo? Yes i 'woo hoo' lauren all the time.
[31] Anyone woo you before(0-100000): Jarrah :) shes feisty
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: Too many.
[34] Ever argue with your other half: HAHA if i had one.
[35] You with your other half since: A couple of months..
[36] Are you straight/Lesbo: straight.. unless it comes to jarrah ;) then i really donno. HAHAHA
[37] Reasons you love your other half: I don't have one. SUCK IT
[38] You and your other half in which stage: ... Fuck ogg..
[39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: yeah all the time.. sure.
[40] Ever think of marry he/she: :| I DONT HAVE ONE! GAHHH

THE FRIENDS

[41] Your first best friend: Laura Carpenter
[42] Your first enemy: Sarah Harriet (man that bitch)
[43] The friend you love the most (1 only): I LOVE THEM ALL :)
[44] The enemy you hate the most (1 only): I hate them all equally.
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: REDZUAN!!!!! :)
[46] Your most handsome boy friend: SEAN AND JAROD FOR THE WIN!
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: Big-headed, Fake, slutty bitches :)
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: Fake, big headed, lying losers :)
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: Yeap...
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: Three of them are. HAHA
[51] If your friend backstabs you: I get pissed.
[52] If your friend betray you: Then fuck them.
[53] If your friend woos your lover: What friend?
[54] If your friend fall in love with you: Thats actually happened...
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: Its happened...
THE STUDIES

[56] Are you a good student: I would like to think i am improving.
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: Yeap.
[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: Ms Hilliebrand yo:]
[59] Always late to school/college: Hardly ever
[60] Your class: Drama, math, science
[61] You love your seniors: What are seniors? .
[62] Seniors who you love the most: Huh?
[63] Your classmates good/bad: LOVE THEM ALL :]
[64] Excellent result classmate: Hyun seok
[65] Laziest classmate: Chris
[66] Smart people: Jess, Jo yve, Hyun, John.. LOADS
[67] Stupid people: YES. David :) haha aww
[68] Good looking people: ME :) HAHAHAHAHA no.
[69] Ugly people: My class is full of sex gods. Redz :) HAHA jk jk
[70] Funny people: Kimmy, Redz, Kat lol theres loads
[71] Cute people: DAVID HO!!
[72] Bad people: Too many...
[73] Honest people: We're all honest when we want to be.
[74] Acting people: I don't get this...
[75] You are what kind of people: PARTYGIRL :)

THE PREFER

[76] Lip or eyes: Both.
[77] Hugs or kisses: Kisses.
[78] Shorter or taller: Taller
[79] Hesitant or spontaneous: Spontaneous
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: Stomach!!! 6 packs all the way...
[81] Listener or Talker: Listener.
[82] Romantic or rich: Romantic
[83] Good husband or good father: Both.

THE FUTURE

[84] Age to get marry: Somewhere between 25-28
[85] Numbers of kid(s): 3; 2 boys, 1 girl or one set of twins:)
[86] Career: Teacher, Advertiser.
[87] Salary: 100,000,000 :D
[88] Retirement age: 55 or shortly after i have kids.
[89] Properties value: -
[90] Wishes: Life to be good.

Tagging; whoever wants to do it.

2008-10-24T01:54:00.000-07:00

tumbling thirty three.

what?

now hes more pissed at me...
why?
who knows...

great.
fucking great.

CRY ME A RIVER

2008-10-20T03:56:00.000-07:00

Turning Tops Thirty Two.

I'm confused.

Wha..t Do I do?

Have You Ever Wanted Something So bad, You would Throw everything away?

I have.

But I don't care for it.

There are things which are more important.

And Wishing For Myself, Well, It's a waste of Time.

But Right Now, I really Do want To escape.

It's Suffocating.

2008-10-20T01:44:00.000-07:00

theoretical thirty one

parental control.

fuck off

haha isn't it so funny?
it's just a fucking joke...

well its not to me...
not at all

2008-10-19T01:04:00.000-07:00

Thoughtful thirty.

Doesn't the world work in mysterious ways?
Every fucking day.
Something that reminds me of you has to occur.
Songs, Pictures, People.
SOMETHING
anything

i feel rather pathetic...

I let go for one moment and he drifted away
I wish I could go back and follow him
But it's too late
I hope he's found someone else who can give him what I never could

would it be too much to say i miss you?

YES.

IT WOULD BE WAY TOO FUCKING MUCH
wouldn't it?!

STOP IT.
please

Could It Last? Watch You Work The Room.

2008-10-17T09:55:00.001-07:00

Troublesome Twenty Nine.

wanna see my Poetry competition poem?

On This Earth, No Matter Where I look,

There's The Sky and the Land.

Sometimes, I wish I could Fly,

In the sky, Just like the birds can.

And I want to discover the world, searching for something more.

I'm just hoping, that no matter where I go

There'll be love and boundaries exempt.

I want to fly, In the sky, Just Like the Birds can.

Like planes crossing the sea of clouds.

In the sky, No matter where I fly,

I wish, The stars and the moon will shine.

On the land, I wish the sea, will crash for me.

And I'm starting to learn, what I really am looking for.

On this Earth, Where there's dawn and dusk.

In the sky, where there's The stars and the moon.

On the Hill, Where there's fireworks and glasses of wine.

All This Time Looking, I've Been Looking for You.

The Earth, The Sky, And The Hill

Could It Last? Watch You Work The Room.

2008-10-17T09:55:00.000-07:00

TINKERBELL AND TELETUBBIES TWENTY FUCKING EIGHT

2008-10-16T05:12:00.000-07:00

TRULY TWENTY SEVEN NESS

Antidaephobia
the fear that somehow and somewhere, a duck is watching you

Aerophobia- Fear of swallowing air
Ambulophobia- Fear of walking
Anablephobia- Fear of looking up
Anthrophobia- Fear of flowers
Arachibutyrophobia- Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth.
Arithmophobia- Fear of numbers
Aulophobia- Fear of flutes
Batophobia- Fear of being close to high buildings
Bibliophobia- Fear of books
Cathisophobia- Fear of sitting
Catoptrophobia- Fear of mirrors
Chaetophobia- Fear of hair
Chionophobia- Fear of snow
Chromatophobia- Fear of colors
Clinophobia- Fear of going to bed
Cnidophobia- Fear of string
Dendrophobia- Fear of trees
Dextrophobia- Fear of objects at the right side of the body
Didaskaleinophobia- Fear of school
Eosophobia- Fear of daylight
Epistemophobia- Fear of knowledge
Ergophobia- Fear of work
Ereuthophobia- Fear of the color red
Geliophobia- Fear of laughter
Geniophobia- Fear of chins
Genuphobia- Fear of knees
Geumaphobia- Fear of taste
Heliophobia- Fear of the sun
Helmintophobia- Fear of being infested with worms
Hemophobia- Fear of blood
Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia- Fear of long words
Ideophobia- Fear of ideas
Kainophobia- Fear of anything new
Kathisophobia- Fear of sitting down
Lachanophobia- Fear of vegetables
Leukophobia- Fear of the color white
Levophobia- Fear of objects to the left side of the body
Melanophobia- Fear of the color black
Melophobia- Fear of music
Nephophobia- Fear of clouds
Nomatophobia- Fear of names
Octophobia- Fear of the number 8
Ommetaphobia- Fear of eyes
Oneirophobia- Fear of dreams
Ophthalmophobia- Fear of opening one’s eyes
Panophobia- Fear of everything
Papyrophobia- Fear of paper
Paraskavedekatriaphobia- Fear of Friday the 13th
Peladophobia- Fear of bald people
Phengophobia- Fear of daylight
Phobophobia- Fear of fear
Photophobia- Fear of light
Phronemophobia- Fear of thinking
Pogonophobia- Fear of beards
Selenophobia- Fear of the moon
Siderophobia- Fear of stars
Triskadekaphobia- Fear of the number 13
Verbophobia- Fear of words
Xanthophobia- Fear of the color yellow

I need to take my mind off it.
Redz and I are auditioning to perform at prom.

wish us luck

thank you redz.
for everything

2008-10-15T02:16:00.000-07:00

triangular twenty six.

my lifes like a triangle.
you keep going straight, and its all good.
then bang
you hit a point.
Then your stuck, eventually you just go in another direction
and for a while, everythings ok
then you just hit another point
and well it just keeps going.
on and on forever.

Today i had cheer leading. I got based and then cradled.
Basically Eli, Ejuen and Khaily got me up into the air and then they dropped and caught me.
The adrenalin rush was insane.
:)

i want to run but only far enough for you to miss me.

Honestly.

2008-10-14T07:01:00.000-07:00

Truthful Twenty-Five.

Honestly,

How Much Do You Know About Me?

Saya.

Wo.

You don't know anything about

and

My Character.

Life Has Gotten Too Boring.

I used to like being alone. A lot actually.

But quite recently. I have this urge to speak.

Well I think I know the reason.

Dammit. I don't like this.

NUR REDZUAN NUR JAZLAN

2008-10-14T03:10:00.000-07:00

Timbering twenty four.
You know how they call out timber before a tree falls?
Someone better call it out soon because baby, i'm the tree.

I blogged twice because i wanted to
I lost my house captain badge:(
What a shit day.
It was gay.
Like most days.

I wanted to slap a certain white whale today.
Redz, you get me.
I wanted to slap her hard.
She thinks shes just so awesome.
Well no, your not.
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...

Halloweens coming up.
I'm excited.
Redz, you better go to li shans thing.

I'm sleeping my way out of this one
With anyone who will lie down
I'll be stuck fixated on one star
When the world is crashing down

I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type
But you've got me looking in through blinds
I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type

Sitting out dances on the wall
Trying to forget everything that isn't you
I'm not going home alone
Cause i don't do too well
Sitting out dances on the wall
Trying to forget everything that isn't you
I'm not going home alone
Cause i don't do too well on my own

The only thing worse that not knowing
Is you think that i don't know
I'm having another episode
I just need a stronger dose

I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type
But you've got me looking in through blinds
I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type

Sitting out dances on the wall
Trying to forget everything that isn't you
I'm not going home alone
Cause i don't do too well
Sitting out dances on the wall
Trying to forget everything that isn't you
I'm not going home alone
Cause i don't do too well on my own

This is who i am.
Read the lyrics.

OH THANK YOU, THANK YOU SO MUCH.

Sarah, Just Shut Up.

2008-10-13T09:24:00.000-07:00

Ahahahahaha.

Die, Midget, Die.

I really wanna finish off My song.

will all the recording and everything.

So I can give it as a birthday present. mmrrh. hahahha

And Sarah For her birthday,

is for sure getting a song from me.

A drawing.

And another one. hopefully.

Ahahaha.

I AM NOT A G STRING.

Tedious Twenty-Three.

Midget why'd you post twice.

2008-10-13T05:28:00.000-07:00

TROUBLESOME TWENTY TWO.

FUCKER, THANKS FOR BLOCKING ME.

NOW, YOU'VE MADE IT PRETTY FUCKING CLEAR.

IT'S SO FUCKING FUNNY...
YOUR SO FUCKING FUNNY...
HA FUCKING HA

Your truth, your lies, not mine.

and so the plot thickens.

---------------------
redz, i couldn't live without you
your the g string to my underwear model :)
haha
your the peanut butter to my jelly :D

You know i really do love you :)
BUT NOT LIKE THAT
eww :P
hahahha
MEGA LOLZ

2008-10-13T04:51:00.000-07:00

TRAGIC TWENTY ONE
sarah. obviously

shut the fuck up.
no one cares what you have to say.

seriously,
go erase me from your memory.
go erase everything i did.
go erase everything i said.
Please do.

shame shame shame.
drown in your fucking shame.
4.48 psychosis

you let me fall.

this is MY downfall
this is the beginning of my discontent.
my body; an empty vessel
my brain; on auto mode
my heart; on lock down

And so, it begins...

2008-10-11T03:28:00.000-07:00

terrorizzing twenty

As Redz puts it i was "playing Hitler" today.
You see, I got really bored
and since there was no internet i started playing age of mythology
and yes, i get really into it

well it so happens redz called me half way and
well, while he was talking i would randomly say things like:
" fucking asshole, attacking me!"
"IDIOTS"
"What the fuck?!? Go over there! Are you retarded?!"
"Mother fucker invading my town who do you think you are?"
"DIE BITCH DIE"

i apologize

Well anyways, its a really fun game.
The 1/8th of German blood in me prevails
:)
I'm hyper.
Gosh.

Love remains the same- Gavin Rossdale

its good

GOOGLISM

sarah is here
sarah is working her way
sarah is google
sarah is mourned youngsters join estate's witch
sarah is alive
sarah is also in the new david cronenberg film existenz
sarah is absent today
sarah is presented in the new testament as a model woman?
sarah is a doll
sarah is fiercely independent and adamant about staying that way
sarah is six months old
sarah is feeling a pain
sarah is golden
sarah is taking this cock into her mouth very deeply
sarah is presented in the new testament as a model woman? what's so important
sarah is anywhere where a pile of leaves calls to you to dive in it
sarah is now seventeen years old
sarah is a friendly
sarah is"
sarah is in the movie scooby
sarah is very attractive
sarah is
sarah is one of four young peregrines bred in captivity and released on the kitchener city hall in 2001
sarah is the music director at the river
sarah is autographed and up for bids on ebay
sarah is one of six young women selected
sarah is an independent
sarah is on the cover of this month's uk elle magazine
sarah is chair of the committee on jobs
sarah is making herself ill by pretending to love her husband
sarah is the same girl with the same
sarah is the alter
sarah is delighted with her latest victory
sarah is quick to deflect the role
sarah is somewhat of a celebrity
sarah is??? mom pinning my boutinerre on my lapel
sarah is currently doing her phd project
sarah is the
sarah is a third grader
sarah is pregnant
sarah is properly supporting the animal
sarah is an international event rider/trainer and four times member of british three day event teams
sarah is seeking
sarah is well
sarah is seventeen
sarah is performing
sarah is a beast
sarah is born
sarah is sexy
sarah is the real thing
sarah is awesome
sarah is motivated by compassion to do good deeds
sarah is doing?
sarah is at home and expecting
sarah is corpse
sarah is
sarah is a design label for bigger women
sarah is alive
sarah is my favorite big brother babe
sarah is a doll
sarah is 6 months old
sarah is here
sarah is macquarie harbour
sarah is around
sarah is a month and
sarah is in love
sarah is a godess
sarah is speaking to here mom on
sarah is a role model my term papers
sarah is so cute when she's drunk

MY GOD THERE WERE WAY TO MANY
this is only like 1/4

Googlism for: redzuan

Sorry, Google doesn't know enough about redzuan yet.

BAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Now you would say;
"die midget"

now thats what i would call;
MEGA LOLZ!

What I HAD planned.

2008-10-10T07:08:00.000-07:00

Neither Nineteen.

I'm actually quite amazed at how, every Alliteration we use, We always Relate it to the post.

For Sarah's Birthday Present I had planned to:-

1) Spell Her Name Out In Flames. Across A field. But That would Burn The Field.

2) Take Her to A Hill To see the stars. NO stars In KL.

3) Take Her To a Hill and Light fireworks and watch them. I have a Bad Experience with fireworks. It exploded before It Flew up. Lucky I had an Umbrella hahaha. haha. haha.

Neither One Of Them I could have done. It's Like I can't get a present for her.

SCREW THAT.

I'll get one hopefully. Unless I really can't.

Of course, I never get things done, But This, I REALLY DO WANT TO DO THIS RIGHT.

hahaha.

And Tomorrow I can't Go to her house, My mother wouldn't let me.

Last Night, I was thinking about how it would feel to sleep in the same bed.

Pretty Damn weird. I never sleep with anyone In the same bed. SHUDDER.

Just Because I don't show it, doesn't mean I feel that way.

Take Your Hand, Feel My Heart, Hear The Beat, Just Like From The Start.

Hahaha Today was random, I stayed back with Sarah because my mother was here anyway

And Well I came down so late, My mother left me behind because I, Hadn't notice my phone was dead. So I stayed Back, Then Stefan Came along, DUDE he's fatter.

And Along She came with a picture, so I wouldn't miss her,

I can agree. Hahahah my birthday present.

I don't actually miss her, Well maybe I do.

But I know I'll see her the day after.

Hahahahaha, her feet are placed diagonally when she's walking, Mine are straight ahaha

And Her Eyes, They have this secretive glint when in the sun. Can't tell what she's thinking.

I'm noticing new things everyday.

Hahaha Her skirt was unbuckled. Damn funny.

Today I felt really dangerous, I was playing with scissors.

That's normal for me. Ahahahaha Imagine when I am dangerous.

I HAVE A HAMMER.

Yellow Moon Yellow Moon.

By the way, Sarah, Don't you ever wonder, what your life would be like If we never spoke, at all.

I would be someone different it we didn't.

And I'm pretty damn glad I'm me.

Because e=mc^2

Your The E in My Equation.

me=c^2

What's C^2?

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

Good Night.

If you Listen long enough, you could hear my voice echo in the words.

isn't that cool?

Well It happens to me whenever I read.

Haahahha

Six Feet Under The Stars.

2008-10-10T02:30:00.000-07:00

eager eighteen

is what your saying true?

Or are you just being poetic?

Don't let me get my hopes up

When you only have bad intentions

their lyrics, but are they really how your feeling?

How much can you tell about a person by just knowing their favourite songs?

a hell of a lot.

what can you tell from mine?
seven minutes in heaven
only one
decode

today i beat redz up
cos he didn't tell me my skirt was unbuckled
fagggggg
oh joy
and hes not coming over tomorrow
so i shall stab him
:D
lol

New york eyes
Chicago thighs
Pushed up the window to kiss you off

ahh redz.
you've changed my life
you made it gayer!
:O
haha
jk jk
its much more awesome :)

MEGA LOLZ
MEGA LOLZ
MEGA LOLZ
MEGA LOLZ
MEGA LOLZ
MEGA LOLZ
MEGA LOLZ
MEGA LOLZ
MEGA LOLZ
MEGA LOLZ

its sarah

2008-10-09T04:47:00.000-07:00

sinful seventeen

I'm sleeping my way out of this one
With anyone who will lie down
I'll be stuck fixated on one star
When the world is crashing down

I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type
But you've got me looking in through blinds
I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type

Sitting out dances on the wall
Trying to forget everything that isn't you
I'm not going home alone
Cause I don't do too well
Sitting out dances on the wall
Trying to forget everything that isn't you
I'm not going home alone
Cause I don't do too well on my own

The only thing worse than not knowing
Is you thinking that I don't know
I'm having another episode
I just need a stronger dose

I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type
But you've got me looking in through blinds
I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type

Sitting out dances on the wall
Trying to forget everything that isn't you
I'm not going home alone
Cause I don't do too well
Sitting out dances on the wall
Trying to forget everything that isn't you
I'm not going home alone
Cause I don't do too well on my own

I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type
But you've got me looking in through blinds
I keep telling myself
I keep telling myself
I'm not the desperate type

Sitting out dances on the wall
Trying to forget everything that isn't you
I'm not going home alone
Cause I don't do too well on my own

what do you think that songs about?
i think its about a guy
whos so in love with a girl
and they used to date
but now they arn't together
and he still loves her
but he keeps like sleeping with other girls
trying to forget about her.
but he can't.

Its still my theme song in life.
because its so darn awesome

thank you redz, for staying back with me :)

we had pictures today.
wow

My heart ticks in beat with these kids that I grew up with.
living like life's going out of style.
And you came to watch us play...like a "Big shot talent,"
but at the end of the day you know where we come from
and where we call home.

oh, i think i'm gonna give up drums
and do violin again.

the reason: i can't practice drums.
no kit

2008-10-08T04:41:00.000-07:00

Ssh, Keep Quiet,

I want to hear the music,

Speak to my ears.

Could It Last?

Watch You Work The Room.

I'll be stuck fixated on one star, when the world is crashing down.

I'll tell you a story, About This Girl

She walked in, Changed My World.

Though We can't see each other

That Doesn't Matter.

I wrote this song for this Girl

That's The first verse. Aiyah.

Hahahahaha.

Severed Sixteen

2008-10-07T06:06:00.000-07:00

oh redz, your too cool.
So now i'm gonna try be creative
and fail..
misrabley
mysarabley
misserabley
MY SPELLING IS SHIT
miserably
there we go.

so here i stand and watch you
just watch, thats all
the way you move
the way you talk
the way you breathe.
I've analysed it all.
You move like you think your perfect, like you are god.
You talk like you love the sound of your voice, like its the only thing that matters.
You breathe, please stop.

your eyes like swords, piercing mine every time they connect
your lips like poison, every word is a lie
your touch like fire, burning every inch of skin you caress

so who are you to me?
no one
who am i to you?
no one
who am i to the world?
no one

i'm a walking, talking, living, breathing disaster
and not a beautiful one at that.

so what do i do now?

frightful fifteen
♥

Let's watch the fire dance around us.

2008-10-07T03:22:00.000-07:00

I don't like keeping secrets.

When People go, Hey Don't tell anyone yeah?

I go Yeahh Sure.

But of course I won't tell, because that would be bitchy.

Wanna See me write something as I write this post?

It always happens I only write when blogging.

If you be my meteor, I'll be your Earth to crash down upon.

No Matter How hard you fall, I'll Always Catch You.

And If you Fly out of orbit, I'll be here pulling you in.

And here, I'll be Gazing through the stars waiting for you.

To crash down upon me.

And I'm sitting in my chair listening to music, and I hear nothing.

Really, It Hurts Not To Know.

Fourteen.

2008-10-06T01:05:00.000-07:00

what what?
nothing...

hipbones&&microphones
make my world go round

what what?
nothing...

who am i?
sarah

I hate everything about you
why do i love you?
~~Thats all folks.~~

♥

2008-10-05T05:38:00.000-07:00

The truth is worst that anything i could bring myself to do
to you...

How did we get here
When I used to know you so well
But how did we get here
I think I know

The truth is hiding in your eyes
and its hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood
but you think that I cant see
What kind of man that you are,
if you’re a man at all
Well I will figure this one
out on my own
(I'm screaming i love you so)
on my own
(my thoughts you can't decode)

I want to be a vampire:)
Or meet Edward Cullen :)
SHUT UP REDZ :D

Well wouldn't it be cool being a vampire?
Think about it.
Just think.
I know what i'm gonna be this Halloween

Its on a friday so yeah
WE MUST PARTY ON DOWN :)
I shall be all halloween like at school :D

-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-
You say you used to like me alot,
and then something happened?
Well fuck you. :)

2008-10-04T11:51:00.000-07:00

Eleven Eleven Eleven.

Umm, Sarah.

1. I'm glad you don't sing for me, because I don't think I could Survive. But I would love it if you did.

2. I think you're like a lion and I'm a Dinosaur And I'm thankful that no matter how much you roar, you don't bite. Ahahaha I'm just thankful you bother to speak to me.

3. Hahaha 3 am? Let's stay up the whole night. I don't think I could get bored talking to you,

Because you just talk and talk and talk. Of course, That's a good thing.

4. I've been trying to write a song for you, everyday, but I have too much to say.

5. You can't bar chord on the guitar. It's pretty Hilarious.

6. Thank you though For Everything.

7. Though 7 Minutes With You Isn't pretty Much Heaven Because You have mood swings hahaha.

8. It's amazing how you, can make me smile when I really I can't and make me laugh at things I don't find funny. It's pretty damn amazing.

9. I don't get why you care so much, But I care as much. Even When I don't show it.

10. Thanks for being You. Even with the Mood swings.

11. Did you know? If you had never spoken to me and we would have never ended up like this, I think I wouldn't be Me. You're more than My Friend, You're A Part Of Me, Like Family, So I'll be here, Sitting, Wishing, Waiting For A Meteor To Rain Down On me. Plus Who else am I gonna speak to when I am Me?

Hahaha Midget.

thankfull ten

2008-10-04T07:56:00.000-07:00

Thankful Ten

redz
Thank you
1. For always being there for me
2. For being so nice
3. For listening to me
4. For making me laugh
5. For sticking by me
6. For being awesome
7. For talking to me
8. For putting up with me
9. For giving me advise
10. For simply being you, nur redzuan jazlan

Im using my uncles phone so its plain.
Peace out.
Sarah

2008-10-03T21:41:00.000-07:00

nein.
no.

what are you trying to guess?

my webcam now has effects.
this is me entertaining myself

One day, i'll fade away
and you'll miss me when i'm gone

Excuse the pointlessness of this post.
Today i'm going to Ipoh, why?
I have no idea

were all just a little scared
its the thrill of it that keeps us goin

Hey...

2008-10-03T12:26:00.000-07:00

Number Eight.

Well.

This Is About A Girl. We haven't Spoke to each other properly in

What feels like forever.

She doesn't tell me what's wrong until it's wrong.

So I try to read her and then Everything is just still the same.

But... It's just that i want to know how you feel.

Guessing is just a __________________

And well to my Best Friend, Sarah,

When you do read this. I'd probably have called you on the phone already.

Saying,

Sorry, I _____________________________________

___________________________________________

Blah

And well of course I know something's bothering you.

How do i say this.

"I miss you"?

Maybe.

And this is how i lay my heart out showing people

How

I'm living.

This is pissing me off, come on, Dawn

I don't like the morning night. It's too damn lonely.

And Well, I've just been waiting for the page to write itself, But

This doesn't help me.

I'm scared.

...redz...

2008-09-30T21:24:00.000-07:00

seven...
ok i'm editing this post because it was just stupid.
well basically i now have internet upstairs so i shall blog from that computer.

My flatlined inhibition is my ammunition
I'm just fighting to get by
Just give me some direction
I'll be your affection
How could you leave me behind?

it seems every single time
it just doesn't work
third times lucky ey?

just please...

666 the number of the beast

2008-09-30T07:08:00.000-07:00

number six.

isn't the crybaby sad?
he actually beat me to it

i actually keep checking to see if she's blogged.
quite sad; i know
anyways...
stressful day

well, selamat hari raya

i wrote a poem thing today
look how sad i am...

i want; your touch
i want; your kiss
i want; your love
i want; your lust

i long for; your touch
i long for; your kiss
i long for; your love
i long for; your lust

i need; your touch
i need; your kiss
i need; your love
i need; your lust

i crave; your touch
i crave; your kiss
i crave; your love
i crave; you lust

i'm desperate for; your touch
i'm desperate for; your kiss
i'm desperate for; your love
i'm desperate for; your lust

help me out.

and the other one:

kiss
hug
love
hate
slap
abuse
talk to
smile at
lust over
talk about

me.

yes, i was that bored.
i'm actually rather sleep
but i don't wanna sleep.

♥i'm taking a big step
♥i've given something to you
♥something i never give out
♥i'm taking a leap
♥for you.

♥don't loose it please

Mgrah.

2008-09-30T04:51:00.000-07:00

Number 5~

Ahahahahaha, Today was uneventful.

Beat you to it midget.

I think that no matter how many times you fall, you just find some damn way to get up again.

And we jumped in the car and drove as we could go, just to get away

Oh my, I was up till like 2.30 trying to make a song for this person. And STILL NOTHING.

mmrh.

I'll be stuck fixated on one star, when the world is crashing down.

Is it still me that makes you sweat?

You want apologies, girl you might hold your breath.

And It feels like ecstasy, when you're with me.

Navigate me~ through your body.

So sweet, I can hardly speak.

We watched the seasons pull up it's own stakes.

You know, I think people do entertain us better than our dreams.

well this could just be me.

Oh wellss.

What do you think Love Is?

2008-09-29T04:39:00.000-07:00

Number 4.

Did you know, This is the first time I've had a dream in so long.

And surprise surprise

It was about the fucking midget hahahaha.

I don't mean it like in a bad way.

I just like saying fucking midget.

Apparently, It was the end of the world, coming slowly.

And That I was in love with her.

With 6 minute intervals to be let out,

I ran back and forth to collect something.

So that I could tell her before I loved her before It all ended.

Then when i showed her the poems i wrote for her, in my dream.

It just suddenly changed and I was WTF-ing in the dream.

then I showed her another one thing I wrote

"I'd enjoy being away from you, but you're much too sweet."

( Well of course this is different. I can't remember it word for word i only know

There was an I, enjoy, you, sweet.)

And then it went blank. I woke up going motherfucker.

I wanted to know what happened.

But I think it looked like we were in school and everything was mixed together.

All the roads, streets and shops so I actually could run to a shop?

I remember Domonic running with me.

And I remember the feelings I felt, well I can't

My heart just won't let me.

I want to know what will happen,

And On Wednesday, i can finally start kissing around.

Ahahaha joy joy joy.

Dudeee I don't know what I'm feeling, I just feel really, Numb?

My heart? soul? mind? Their not telling me anything.

I hate not knowing.

About

Myself.

You're a thorn in my heart that I'm not dying to get out.

Just leave it there, No matter how much it hurts.

I don't like saying goodbye.

Do you know everything about yourself?

-Redz-

ungrateful attitudes and pointless days

2008-09-29T02:47:00.000-07:00

number three.

i'm on drugs according to the school
thank you so much
for doing this

you've got to love high school
next time i'll just turn the other way
so you can stab me even harder in the back this time

we cared for you
we took you in
we look out for you
and not really any appreciation was shown

well, its not like you would get into trouble anyways
who cares right?

so we just wait it out

anyways, look at an email i got
a reason why guys like girls.

The way their tears make you want to
change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore..... Yet regardless if you love them,
hate them, wish they would die or
know that you would die without them ... it matters not. Because once in your life,
whatever they were to the world
they become everything to you.
When you look them in the eyes,
traveling to the depths of their souls
and you say a million things without trace of
a sound, you know that your own life
is inevitable consumed within
the rhythmic beatings of her very heart.
We love them for a million reasons,
No paper would do it justice.
It is a thing not of the mind
but of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA
sorry
i know its romantic. but still
its too sweet
it can't be true

that stuff only exists in movies
laugh
yes laugh
that the way i get through my day
lalala
redzuan laughs at me
which is mean
he bullys me
one day i will beat him up
:D
lol

look at the pretty colours
don't they just make you wanna
smile?

sarah out.

Looks like we wrote a page.

2008-09-27T21:08:00.000-07:00

number two.
the second post.

in just a second, what could you do?
win a race?
just sit there?
save a life?
save your own?

just watch the clock
tick
tock

so how many seconds have you wasted?

just think once its happened
its happened
there's no way you can relive it

they say your only 20 once
well your only 5 once
your only 10 once
your only 15 once
blah blah blah

Ahahaa, In that second, you could make a wish.

Just wish for that second back.

Well This is the second post, how haha.

I like the joker card in a pack of cards.

You know when you make eye contact with someone?

What do you see In that persons eyes?

Sssh Keep Quiet.

I'm just wondering,

Is she gonna like post everyday?

Because I don't wanna keep writing everyday.

I think Music Speaks to us,

Note after note.

You just gotta listen.

I swear the midget is so damn light.

I don't understand why she wants to lose weight.

I still have an essay to write dammit.

Too lazy.

I like the piano, violin, guitar and the saxophone.

Though I only play two out of the four.

I wish I could play the other two.

I think time, Is too timed.

I think The sky, should be painted with the most beautiful colours

And I think the skies should be fluttered with Stars

Most of all I think Someone entertains me better than my dreams.

Do you have someone like that?

2008-09-27T08:24:00.001-07:00

so this is the beginning,

of the end

well this is random

AND well.

I thought that if I stared at blank pages,

I'd eventually find something to write,

But that's a total lie,

It's just that, I'm hoping for the pages,

To write themselves up.

But Nah wouldn't that be boring.

and this is the end,

of the beginning

Well, you must be joking,

we're just another couple

of people who're waiting

for pages to be written.